curhat all about my life :)

hem apa yg mau gue curhatin yaa ? gue bingung bgt deh :( bingung dgn 2 lelaki !! hahahahaha :D yg pertama RYAN . yeah you know who is he kan .. skrg gue jadi benci bgt sama dia :( pokoknya hate him very much no matter what everyone say i just hate him .. bener2 gue ngga tau knp gue benci bgt sama dia , yg pasti saat ini itu yg gue rasain dan memang itu perasaan gue kedia sekarang .. dan ternyata emang bener gue benci bgt sama dia !!! walopun dia emang baek banget sama gue, ngga hanya baik malah tapi juga nyenengin dan itu yg ngebuat gue MERASA punya harapan padahal itu HANYA harapan kosong yg ngga berarti apa2 buat dia !!! all the things he did made me feel there is hope, even though it was just a false hope and does not mean anything to him. I was stupid because it can feel there is hope, and And he is also stupid because it makes me feel hopeful that without knowing the truth ... but that was past and gone, now I have to live my life without a shadow of a stupid RYAN!!
kedua , dia ini baru aja gue kenal dan gue pun baru sadar kalo selama ini dia ada di dekat gue .. ya dia adalah MUHAMMAD CHANDRA RAMADHAN , anaknya temen bokap sekaligus tetangga gue !! tapi sayang nya dia udah pulang ke magelang soalnya dia lagi taruna :( yeaah tahan bbrp taun deh dan berharap dia cepet balik ke jkt lagi :)